AdventuresWithMeg

It’s been a stretch since I last wrote; a fair amount has happened, and it’s been mostly good. I’ve been feeling more anxious than I have been in a good bit; im not sure why but ive been doing more things to help balance the anxiety and get my brain out of panic mode. Im taking time on my days off to be more present and be less in my head. 

Pilates has helped a lot. I am a little bit stronger in my core, and it’s easier to meditate when im doing something with movement; something about the actions gives my brain time to essentially zone out and reset essentially. Gaming has been happening slowly in quiet moments, sometimes with my lil bro or just me; the sessions with just me ones are more slow and steady style and gaming with my lil bro is more intense and primarily him teaching me how to play or expressing how bad I am haha.

There are many different things I should be doing, but I dont have the energy to do like I have plans on what id like to do however, I dont quite have the means or im not quite ready for the big step.  

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Its taking me what feels like forever to write this. Ive been trying to figure out where i wanted to take this post but all ive been doing is living in the moment, cleaning, playing Animal Crossing, and  other generic house things between working and sleeping. I meant to record for the podcast but my throat is still slightly swollen and talking hurts like a bugger (not a cold or anything of the like, its literally just me losing my voice), i may do that tomorrow because im not talking as much and i should be able to talk without discomfort to record and rest it after. I have to deliver two things tomorrow before doing some laundry, edit another blog post, and hopefully get some time to play animal crossing (i have my island with the three new islanders and im working towards getting bridges on every part of my island and having a four room house). 

I ran some errands today and i picked up some change for laundry, some allergy pills and had a nice walk, it was a little drippy out, not really a solid rain more it wanted to but couldnt commit. Im not a huge fan of walking in the rain in general but it made my night feel very relaxed as i was able to get my even comfier clothes on and curl up to watch The Lion King and  do some little things i havent been able to do. I got a free iced coffee (i save mine up and treat myself with them when im feeling the need for caffeine) while out and i shouldnt be drinking caffeine after 12pm however i tend to crash hard after doing that so it kinda ballances out in the end; it could be better but i dont drinnk too much coffee now, only when im working in the morning or if im not sleeping well and i need to crash hard that night. I drink tea when im not working and that tides me over more than coffee does throughout the day but its a slower wake up for me and im not a people person before caffeine in the morning, i learned this the hard way and i stick to what works for me currently. It may have to change in the future however for now ill stick  to what works. 

This post is a mismatched of the first day i sat down to write this, to the second and now im on the third session and i can find a bit more of the words, it probably helps ive given myself time to process things and not forced words out when they didnt want to come out. I hope this makes sense, im going to edit it so its not as chaotic and well as ive been since. The ice coffee im still finishing is probably helping too, i havent had this much energy at the end of the day in a good while, i did do some yoga/pilates earlier and i got the kinks cracked out ive been holding in since i got up and has been building from the start of my shift to when it finished. 

Works been either very much or very chill lately; by much i mean its a lot louder, choas reigns and it feels like everything is hanging on by a thread; where as when its chill, everyone is meshed well, its quiet conversation wise and theres very little chaos. Therapy is going good, the one ive had for the last little bit has finished their placement so im with another one now and im yet to interact with the new one however the previous one says they think we will mix well together and fit my particular needs. 

I think im done rambling now haha, thanks for hanging in to the end and i hope you have a lovely day! 

Till Next Time, 

Meg

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