AdventuresWithMeg

I was having a hard time getting words out earlier, so I decided to record whatever was in my head and see if that would help. It did, so I am going to include it in this post for you to listen to at your leisure. 

The transcript is from my recorder app, so some words may be funky or weird. I will do my best to edit it as I find the mistakes. 

The Transcript;

Hello, and Hi, um this is a little different from the regular uh, written posts. However, I have been trying to write and I can’t seem to get the words out but I felt like talking so I figured I would paint my nails. And tell you what’s on my mind.

Which is a lot, honestly. I’m It’s been a week. Well, I shouldn’t say. It’s been a year. Um, there’s been a lot of changes. I am turning 30 soon. I feel like I’m not even close to where I originally thought I would be, which has been a little surprising, but I am. Happy, I could change some of the things, but overall, I don’t think I would change too much. 

Um, But, oh my goodness. Thank you. The nail polish would not go out very nicely. Anyways. I, I’m turning 30 soon. I started a new career. I feel like I have an idea of where my life’s going, but not really. And I’m just, I’m not even sure. To be quite honest. I feel like I’m on the verge of a midlife crisis. I feel like I know you’re not supposed to compare your life to other peoples because your path is different. But like, My mom had three kids by the time she was 30 or on the verge of having three kids. I don’t even have one, well, technically, I have two but that is the blog and uh, the podcast. Um, But no, you know, real life. Children.

And I don’t know, there’s just I feel like there’s something missing. I don’t know what that something is. And I’m not sure. I’ve been doing all the things I enjoy. I haven’t been um. I’ve been experimenting with like different types of music, different crafts. I’ve been talking with more people, which has been exhausting, but good. But still feels like something’s missing and I don’t know. I still don’t know what that is. But I’m a happy place mentally. I’ve been sleeping better, which has been phenomenal and a game changer.

I’ve actually cut down on my caffeine intake, which is mind-boggling. Because I love my caffeine. I’ve been cutting down on it, and I’m finding, I’m not overthinking as much which has been shocking. So, I think I’ve been having too much caffeine which helps cause to me to overthink but because I haven’t drank enough a lot more caffeine. My body is acting weirdly until it gets used to it. So I mean, that’s a struggle when you have a caffeine addiction But, I’ve mixed in with, Peach juice. 

Now that I got from work. Because we have, These juice just like juice, dispensing machine. Um, it’s for everyone in the building. So, I’ve been mixing a little bit of peach juice with water and then drinking that if I want caffeine after I drink my one cup of coffee per shift because I’m trying to limit myself. So im down to two cups of coffee a day. And considering I’m working nights, it’s actually been working out. I’ve been pretty impressed. 

Um, But, Yeah, and like I found That the books I used to like are not. Not all of them. I want to read anymore. Um, for some reason. I don’t know. Um, and then And then, Like, I’ve just found my movie Taste have all changed. Like, I don’t seem to like a lot of the things I used to, which does happen because people change over time, But like, It’s just not fitting and like, All the colors I usually would like go for They’re not really my thing anymore. Which has been interesting expect in a an inch. An interesting experience in itself. And I’ve been trying, Something new. Which, You might listen, you know, if you listen to the podcast I’ve started doing interviews. Now, some of them will be a little bit more awkward than others because I know some people slightly better and have a bit more of a rapport with them. 

Um, like Bella. I’ve known her for I say, 22 years. She says 21 years. It’s been an ongoing, uh, discussion. But I still say 22. Um, but I’ve known her for like 22 years. So like she kind of We read each other very well. Um, some other people I’m looking into interviewing. Like, some of my family members. I’m gonna see if potentially some friends. Um, I’m not gonna push anyone. I’m just gonna see be like, “Hey, Did you want to do this?” Um, if not, that’s okay. Um, so we’ll see how that goes. 

Um, And I’ve. It’s just been a really interesting time because I’ve been trying to Figure out what’s been missing because I think I’ve led a decent life. Um, I have hobbies, I have some people no longer in my life. And I would like to change that, but I also know that sometimes you just drift. And some are reasons that I could have changed, but I didn’t realize at the time. And now I do and I, I understand why they drifted Um, I don’t blame them. And life, honestly. Life just gets in the way sometimes. So, It’s no fault of theirs. But I don’t think I’ve made many enemies. 

I did work at a Tim Hortons. So, like, Who knows? Because I feel like Tim Hortons is just an interesting place to work, not bad. I’ve met a lot of really nice people. Um, to this day, I’m still friends with most of the people I worked with at Tim Hortons. Um, but It definitely was like a crash course on How to treat people for sure. Because a lot of people seem to forget that you’re human, Which was a little frustrating. And I no longer work there so I feel like I feel more comfortable to talk about my experiences there. And I do apologize. You’re gonna get just a stream of whatever’s in my head, because I have tried to write seven times today. And it’s just not working. So, you’re getting whatever’s in my head because I it it’s literally what it is.

Um, But yeah, so Tim Hortons for a bit, so I kind of experienced a lot of the Shenanigans. Um, It was definitely a learning experience. I Appreciate everything I’ve learned from there, and The people I have met who are still in my life to this day. But it just definitely not for the weak. Um, anyone who works fast food, it’s not for the weak. Um, if you work fast food, Dude, you got so much of my admiration because there were many times where I got so mad. And I appreciate anyone who works in the food, honestly, in the food service industry because like, That stuff’s hard. And no matter what you do, no one you’re always gonna find someone who’s not happy with what you do. Which has been, which is frustrating for a people pleaser like me.

Um, Yeah, it’s just wild. But anyway. Yes, I’ve been feeling kind of lost in the world so I’ve been experimenting with a bunch of different things. I’ve found a bunch of new hobbies And I, Have really enjoyed them, honestly. I’ve started doing, um, teaching myself to digital drawing. Because I can do regular drawing and I like on paper and I love that, I find it very relaxing and the sound of the pencils on paper is very soothing somehow not entirely sure why. But I find it relaxing, kind of like sitting by the water. Um, so that’s been nice and

I decided to throw in something for fun. Um, I’ve been teaching myself Korean for off and on for like the past 10, 11 years, give or take. Um, I understand it more than I speak it. I will say, but I’m not uh, the best. And for fun because I just needed something new. Um, I just had to teach myself. Hi Valerian. And that has been really fun, and it’s been It’s been a highlight for sure. And then, Um, I’ve been teaching myself. Um, nursing stuff. Because it applies to work and I hear enough of it at work off and on. So I’ve been trying to teach myself more of the lingo um what certain things mean, Um, what certain medications are for I don’t personally think I would feel comfortable giving out medications. Ever to be quite honest. However, Um, I’d still like to know what they mean. So if God forbid something happens, Um, and someone asks, well, what’s this for? I can be like, oh, they took They thought this is what that’s for, um, And I find that really fascinating. Um, Because not only is nursing. Something I’m interested in because of work, but it is, there’s a lot of history behind nursing. So, I’ve been looking into like a lot of Like the history of nursing. Um, I have Florence nightingale’s book on The do’s and don’ts of nursing. That is part of a title. That’s not the full title. Um, but I’ve been listening to that to like kind of see where the history was at that point. And that’s been fascinating. 

And hold on I need a drink here. I’ve been um, experimenting with different uh content creation. I’ve been making my own list of writing prompts. And I’ve been, I have to make a few of them’s now because I’m a little behind. I’ve been experimenting with a Youtube. Um, Now, the podcast automatically goes to YouTube, however I thought it was just fun, something fun to do. And eventually I would like to make videos on YouTube, um, and it’s not something that’s going to make me money. Most likely given. Given how much people are on YouTube and the cost of everything. And how much content creators get under a certain level of followers and whatnot. But, I just think it’ll be fun. Which I think is the important thing as long as you’re having fun. That is the main goal. Um, I just want to have fun. I spend most of my time after work sleeping. Which is really nice because I had um, I do have sleep issues. I either get no sleep or sometimes, I’ll only thing I want to do is sleep. Um, it’s in between and I’ve researched it and it is a side effect of ADHD, somewhere in there. I don’t remember exactly all the information right now but it is like a side effect of ADHD. And it is something to do with the chemicals that your body produces. Um, Which helps with the overthinking, I think, as well. Um, but that’s been really fun to learn. I’ve been learning like just a lot of like little things that just help. Like overall in my day-to-day life. Um, I found Someone mentioned me it starts with why it’s this breathing technique. Yamaha, I think; I always yawn a few hours after wake up. Don’t know why? But it’s this breathing technique. And I find it really. Really relaxing. And I don’t know why. Like, I do yoga and that seems to be the only way I can meditate besides this breathing technique. Now, Which is definitely growth because. Well, boy, I cannot meditate for the life of me and I’ve been trying since I was like 15 Um, my aunt is a Yoga instructor. But at the time she wasn’t certified to be a yoga instructor but she was suggesting, I try it. Um, and I did. And it took me a long time to get used to the fact of doing it. So I could relax. And that has changed my life for so much of the better. Um, But it took me so long to get used to it. Because I’m particular, And yes, that’s been fun. 

Um, I’ve been. Purposely because I work in an old building. I take the stairs as much as possible, even though I like walk everywhere. I take the stairs as much as physically possible. Because one I don’t want to go to the gym and I do enough lifting and moving and everything else that I figured taking the stairs is like a free form of cardio and I get paid to do it. So, Might as well. Because, They say you’re supposed to keep moving. Um, Oh, like when You’re not working. Like to keep moving as much as possible, so because I’ve been, Like I do a lot of walking. Um, But because I have been doing night shifts. I don’t get a lot of sunlight in things. Um, so I feel like doing the stairs at work is kind of like A cheat or a hack, if you will. To get at more exercise. And get more steps in. Um, And that way, I also. I also get. I also get to. I also get to. Oh my God. Where did it go? The sentence disappeared on me. I do apologize. But I just feel like it’s might be a hack might not be. I do it. I enjoy it and It’s been, it’s been nice. But um, I’ve noticed since I started working, Where I am? I have lost about I’d say 30 Pounds, give or take. But I’ve noticed I’ve gained more muscle. It’s like my legs. Um, Like my back, my shoulders, my arms. Um, there have a lot more muscle than they used to. To the point where I now realize that I have to get bigger shirts, like another size up because my arms will not will not fit in the same shirt size and I just bought a bunch of shirts in that size and some of them fit tighter. So I think, um, in that style, I’ll have to get a bigger size because my arms don’t fit I got too much muscle in my arms now. Which is not something not something. I thought I’d be saying honestly because I didn’t think I’d uh have muscle. And here we are. I have a lot more muscle. I have noticed, my flexibility is a lot better because I’m doing so much bending and moving and helping other people move sometimes. So like I’ve just gotten a bit more flexible, 

But I’ve also noticed that because I’m getting older, my knees crack and I don’t like that. The other day at work, I was walking up the stairs. All of a sudden my knee cracked but because it was like out of nowhere it, my knee almost gave out as well at the same time. Which was a bit of a nightmare, especially because I was halfway up the stairs.

And that’s an older building, so the stairs are a bit steeper. And that was not fun. But, You know, I made it upstairs. I was okay, my knee is fine. But it was just very entertaining and if, well, not really entertaining if you in a way but like, it was like one of those. Oh, okay, that’s ch that’s a new change. And, I’ve been trying to embrace the change. Because I know I don’t accept change as much as I used to as a kid. Um, I think that’s partially because I’ve realized that routines help me And if I don’t stick to a certain routine, I feel physically uncomfortable so that that could be part of it. Um, I haven’t, I haven’t asked anyone, why? But you know, it’s something and anyways, so I’ve been trying to accept change as comes And kind of work with that. 

Um, It’s been a bit of a challenge accepting the changes. But I’m finding I’m a lot happier. Like, I don’t seem to care like as much about what other people think. And the end of the day. They’re not me so I just Say poo, poo. Um don’t know why I said that but it makes sense. It’s not their life, it’s not their business that they can go mind their own business, you know.

Oh goodness. I talk too much. But yeah, no, sorry. This is just a really big stream of thought. I just feel like I’m losing my marbles a wee bit sometimes now too. Because like, I gotta do things and I’m like, no. No, we’re not gonna do that. And then I sit there and I’m like, oh okay. That’s, that’s a new thing. And like, I’ve been trying to experiment with books. Because I don’t know what I like anymore. So much. So I’ve been experimenting with different books. And well, my comfort reads currently are, I guess Agatha Christie novels And I’m not sure why. Um, now these ones are edited, um, because Well, because like the just the originals were not, um, The, the way they were written was just not socially. Or acceptable by me to be quite honest in some instances. Um, most instances actually. All instances actually. Anyways, they have been rewritten um. So, they are not the exact Originals. Um, but for some reason I have been really leaning towards. Um, the novels specifically ones read by David Suchet. I do apologize if I pronounced his name wrong, um, he is the gentleman who played Hercule Poirot. And I also pronounced that name wrong half the time, so, I try it just does not work for me. Um And Hugh, Frasier. Because Hugh Frasier has a nice. A nice voice, the way, the the pace, he speaks the way he speaks and the tone in which he speaks. And then, He does accents quite well. So I just enjoy the different accents. Like I’m listening to um Peril at Peril at. Hold on a second gotta look it up here. Parallel at end house. And they have Scottish characters. They have British characters Australian. Like a variety, a good variety of accents, and he does them all wonderfully. And he is the only narrator and he he really does bring the characters to life. Um, I really do enjoy that. And there’s just something about those stories. Like, I These are the ones I can listen to if I’m reading like a book physically. It’s the in-depth. And I have tried to. Listen to the audiobook versions. Wow, that’s my elbow. I’ve tried to listen to the audiobook versions and I can’t do it. Because I’ve watched too much crime documentaries. And I see way too many. Horrific things. In my head. When they describe scenes, and I don’t like like some of the books do involve Assaults of a variety of kinds. And I I’ve always just found that incredibly uncomfortable to sit through Um, like I knew it was a thing. know it was a thing. But I, I don’t like Sitting through listing to someone. Describe assaults of any kind. Um, because I find it. It just makes me uncomfortable because I don’t want. Like, I imagine the characters as people, and I can’t imagine someone doing that to someone. So that’s a little interesting. Um, I I am honestly, not sure why I can’t sit through those. Or why I can’t sit through like topless of that kind, um, but I can read them. Don’t ask me why. Um, Like there’s other crime stuff. I can’t listen to either because it just bothers me.

It just makes me feel fidgety and like I need to move. Or like I need to like go have a shower. And clean myself after listening to certain things. Um, so that’s that’s fun. Um, not really but Yeah, so that’s why I have. And then besides that, I’ve been like, I’ve been reading, I still have not finished fourth wing. I’m still waiting for my friend to finish it. The next book before I could read that one. So I may have to start over from like, beginning which I will, I’m okay with Um, but that’s a struggle. For me. And then besides that, it’s just been books on. It’s been books on Celtic history and paganism. Um, Oh, and runes runes like um, Norse runes. Or like Hecate, um, Scottish fairy and folk tales Celtic fairy and folk tales. Um, the differences between like the Morrigan and Um, Scottish witchcraft, a wild magic. The difference between Norse and Celtic magic. Um, stuff like that. Like that’s been really fascinating for me. Um but I’ve learned that I can’t listen to that kind of stuff. Like the magic-ish related things specifically, unless I’m crocheting Because then I can sit still. And do it. Otherwise, I will lose focus of what I’m actually doing. And I’ve been trying really hard to work on my focus and it is much better lately. Um, but I’ve noticed to focus. I have to listen end up listening to music, I listen to in high school. Which is a lot of ACDC, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Tom Petty. Um, Ozzy Osborne and stuff like that mixed with Down with Webster. Um, Creed Theory of a Deadman, Theory of a Deadman. Um, simple plan. Uh, McFly. Like it’s mostly like, pop bunk. Um, Pop, punk music. Um, because for some reason, it’s the beat It’s the Beat of the music that gets me. Like as soon as it comes on, it’s just like my body, just calms. So I don’t know. I heard that there’s something in pop punk music that’s supposed to like helps with that kind of thing but I don’t know the full history behind it. I’m actually going to look it up before I go in for my shift tonight.

Um, But, Yeah. Anyways, I feel like I’ve rambled enough. Um, if you’ve made it through this, I thank you so much. Um, I’m not sure how uh, insightful this is, but um, I feel a lot better personally. So I do hope you enjoy it. Um, I will be back with a new post in the next little bit. Um, I should have a new post tomorrow actually. Now that I think about it. Um, But yeah. Anyways, so I’m gonna go now research that, um, I hope you have a wonderful day and I will see you soon with a new post, bye.

So that’s a long one, but I hope you enjoyed it. The clinking noises were the nail polish bottles and my coffee cup as I finished it as I recorded. I will see you soon with a new post! 

Till Next Time, 

Meg

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