This post is mostly just the jumbles from my thoughts, it’s been a real roller coaster in there lately.
I’ve been struggling to find some of the words to say what I feel but I have a supportive partner, a cuddly pup who helps with relaxing and Im finding the right ways to do things that work for me.
It’s been a normal day but something feels different. It feels brighter, more relaxing and like there’s less on my shoulders.
I’ve started a new round of therapy with someone new, walking more, cutting out things that aren’t serving a purpose in my social media, and going more into my 2016 media but a less rose colored glasses look at it.
Reading has been something I’m doing more of, not spending recklessly or going over my budget, and taking more breaks away from my phone while focusing on the here and now.
My therapist pointed out I get stuck on things and I’ve been actively trying to not get stuck on things and see past them to the bigger picture and it’s going to take a lot more work but it’s going to get easier I hope. I’ve been trying to not get stuck on things since it was pointed out and its not as bad but definitly needs work.
… I feel like I’m getting bored of the writing prompts but I also like them because it’s part of my routine in the morning after greeting the dog while my coffee starts to cool down. Im a little conflicted about that but I dont want to stop so I may get creative with some if Im not vibing with what is the daily post.
I picked up a few books from the local used book store the other day that are based around my spiritual beliefs and I’m finding my path there. I’m not really religious but I like where my path is leading me in that regard.
Im feeling kinda like I see a bit of a path to the light so to speak and its not going to be even or straightforward, I could get lost a little bit in the future however im seeing what id like to have around. The light is where I imagine the more healed version of me is and is cheering me on in my adventure there.
I ordered a new pair of glasses, they are metal, and should sit higher on my nose which will help with my sinus issues and give me something I can switch out fairly easily if I dont feel like the rainbow frames.
The OutPost has been one of my stops the last few weeks and ive missed the last some of the people I’ve met through there but never see till I go in. They are really nice and are doing a lot to help the community.
I think I may be getting to the point where I will be fluctuating weight wise, or at least getting closer as I’ve started to find that I’m toning more but not really too much changes are happening. With less stress I find I’m not holding onto words and moments as much which is nice and I’m able to relax my body/mind more.
Sleep has been really nice, there’s been some interruptions however I found something that helps. It’s a CBD/CBN gummies (legal here) and they don’t get you high, they trigger something that melatonin and many other sleep aids don’t. I’m not sure of the science behind it but I enjoy using them occasionally when I’m overthinking and can’t sleep. Long term use may not be a thing but for now its working great and a good tool to have when needed.
Im not sure how to end this so im going to leave it off here. Life has been wild and im enjoying spending time with those in my life.
I hope you have a lovely day, see you soon with a new post!
Till Next Time,
Meg
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