AdventuresWithMeg

So it’s been a day; I should be in bed with the lights off, trying to sleep. However, it’s been a few days since I last wrote, and I need to clear some thoughts; to begin with, I haven’t been in much of a people mood lately. Im not quite sure why, but im finding it more challenging to find nicer people in general, as there is more stress at work with the season and other things. There also seem to be more sad things hitting my family in the last few years around this time, and thats been something ive been surprised by and dealing with when I get the chance. 

To help keep my demons at bay, I have been switching up my routine. Ive did some looking into it, and I have been putting together a new meditation/fitness plan, trying new foods to give some spice to life, doing some slow changes in some stuff im listening to while not working and trying to be more present. Yoga and some weight lifting have been happening to keep my brain happy. I adjusted since I tore some ligaments and to help to stabilise and build more muscles. It’s a bit uncomfortable feeling muscle pain the day after; however, I’m noticing a difference already, and im enjoying it. I ideally would like to be a surprising, muscled person, like someone who you dont see/think can lift certain things. My friend is telling me I will be like a muscle mommy (they call me mom cause I mom them unintentionally so much), and im not sure how to feel about that, but im just happy to be getting more muscles while giving myself time just to exist. 

With ADHD, I personally find it hard to keep my brain quiet. There are so many things going on 24/7, and I only find rest when im doing yoga or when im listening to something while doing whatever activity im doing (Im listening to Crime Over Coffee while writing this), and I find a happy medium. Sitting still is also something I find difficult unless I focus on something while sitting; the workouts have been helping me to sit still more and find more focus outside of work and a better focus at work (sensory overload happens more at work, and stillness isn’t always an option).  Meal prepping some stuff helps, too. I tend to pick at food more, but lately, I have been making higher protein but still comfort food for work or for home. It makes life more accessible, and cooking is relaxing for me; I also inherited a habit of producing more than necessary (cooking with the heart, as I think someone in the family called it; I could be wrong, though). 

A regular at work made a set of nails for me (@cvine.nails on Instagram), and they have been life-changing; I pick at my nails when im more stressed or anxious, and I haven’t been able to pick since putting these on; I can still do my job safely while wearing them and dont worry about anything since they are stable and making me more cautious about how im picking things up. I highly recommend giving her a look. There are some cute designs, and im going to get more as they are straightforward to use and pretty, and I can do everything I need to do with the length they are.  The colors are bright and cheerful, which brings some serotonin when I look at them and helps boost the seasonal depression mood, so it’s a good time all around.  

There are more words, but this is as much that im able to get out currently, so im going to end this here. I hope your day is lovely, and I will see you in the next post! 

Till Next Time, 

Meg 

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