Im not sure what to call this post; I have lots of thoughts im going to try to get out as legible as I can. I was not feeling the best yesterday; I napped for about 4 or 5 hours (which is not something I typically do), and I feel much better today. I thought yesterday about how it was suggested to pop some meds and go to work feeling like hot garbage, working through instead of resting and giving your body time to recover. I remember calling in once at one of my previous jobs (i rarely call in sick, but still dont unless it’s needed) and being told because of the number of people calling in and posting online for the managers to see that they weren’t sick, anyone calling in had to prove they were sick by a note from a doctor saying so. While it annoyed me at the time, I do understand why it was implemented and made mandatory.
I was made to feel guilty when I did call in at the job mentioned above; it made me feel like I was not worth taking the time to rest and just there to be another number. Which made it easy for me to burn out and look for another job to have cause I started to fucking hate the job I had, but not wanting to leave a wrong impression, I did my job to the best of my abilities till I no longer worked there. Now I can’t say id return to the job; however, I learned alot, some that I use to this day, some that I use in certain situations.
I dont know what id like to do with my career; I have tried a few different things, and while I haven’t found my career path, im content following the path im on as it grows. I have no idea where it will go, but it will turn into what it will. So far in my life, ive worked in grocery stores, a kids’ party store, coffee shops and fast food; ive done some co-op in book stores/libraries as well. It influenced how ive done some things and what ive been interested in; it’s part of the reason I started this blog and have been trying something out of my comfort zone when I have time off.
Writing has given me an outlet to explore more of what I never gave myself the confidence in because I never thought id be good enough to do writing. It’s been said that writing isn’t profitable for the most part, hence why I never really gave myself the time to explore it. Since starting the blog, ive found more confidence in not only my writing but in my everyday life, now im still shy in some ways, but it’s made a difference.
Im not sure how to end this, so I’ll end it here; I hope your having a wonderful day and having a delightful surprise happen this week.
Till Next Time,