I’m not sure what to call this; I know that I haven’t been writing too much, and I have had some blockage creatively. Ive been having a lot of technical issues that im still trying to fix, my keyboard is permanently stuck in french and fn mode, and nothing ive seen or done is helping, which is fun. 

It’s been a long week. Im getting a better sleep which is nice, but everything else seems to be going lopsided. I love having the dog here, and while it’s working, it’s rewarding; he is doing good; he’s not probably along as he should be; we are a bit behind in some training, but he listens, and while he does have the random accidents he doesn’t seem to be barking like crazy anymore which is good.  He does try to be very helpful, likes to help as you fix stuff, to do dishes, and he’s gotten to the point where he’s not standing right behind you, which I appreciate because when you’re cooking and he’s right there it’s a hazard while cooking. Murphy is doing really good he still has to get used to some things (hes still a puppy), but he’s doing really good, considering.

 I was at the pet store getting bugs for the leopard gecko that’s here and some toys for the puppy and I ended up getting a hamster; now I’ve been thinking about getting a hamster for several years; they’re charming and very cuddly and they while they do have a smell associated with them they are very calm and small creatures to take care of. The hamster’s name is Teddy, and he has little tiny Paws, and he crosses up when he sits back on his legs, and he’s very cute, very nice very quiet. I got him one because I love him and two because this was mine as much as the dog is mine; he is also my mom’s, and the hamster is something that is mine alone, and I’m able to have a bit more control in that area that makes sense.  

I’ve been living with my mom now for about three months, give or take and now it has its ups and downs; it’s been okay considering we don’t have a perfect relationship; we’re still working on that, and there are some things I could change but I can’t. It’s been an adventure; I’ve come to terms with it, and it’s been good; there’s a lot going on behind the scenes. I have to do many little things, and I don’t have a lot of the means to do is this some of them, so it’s more dependent on someone else to help me with some aspects. So that’s been a bit more of a challenge on that side, but I’m enjoying living here; there’s a lot happening around the area, so I can just go out and do stuff. If that makes sense, I feel like a small town without the actual small town, and there’s always something happening, so it makes for an adventure. I hope it keeps going like this; I know nothing will be perfect, but at least it’s balanced, which I don’t hate.

Mentally I’m doing okay; well, life has given me some choices,  and I’ve made them I can’t say for certain if they are the right ones in the long run, but for right now, it’s the right choice. Therapy is going good; Im finding some sleep is a little harder right now, and that’s something that is slowly getting better.  The work I’m putting in is helping to balance everything else happening, and I’m still working on not being able to control certain things in my life. I know there’s always will be things that I won’t be able to control and that I have to let go of essentially, and well, some of it will stick with me only for a few hours; it’s gotten much better, and I’m able to be more relaxed, appreciate, and it makes life a bit more enjoyable, so that’s good. The technical issues I’m experiencing are really messing with me because now I can’t even do speech to text, which is how I’m writing, because I can’t fix my physical keyboard, which is annoying me. Now I can’t control it, so I’m learning to deal with that, but it’s still quite annoying,  I’m working with what I can and can’t do today, and that seems to be making some parts of my life easier.  I plan to get the laptop fixed if I can’t figure it out by the end of the week. I did mess with the settings following instructions from windows 11 guides, so it could have been something I did, but it has not been cooperating for the last like a week, so we will figure this out. 

This is been a long post. I have not been posting a lot on the blog. I know I’ve wanted to; I just don’t know what to write about; I feel a bit blocked and drained. I thought about doing something light-hearted, and I just didn’t have the energy to do it. I’ve been posting a lot more about the dog and training and just basically existing because that’s all I’ve really been doing after work; I come home, I walk the dog,  I clean,  I cook, and I essentially I just spend the rest of the night walking the dog and trying to relax so that I can get a good sleep and that the dog will also relax because he has been by himself for however long; he needs to get his energy out still, and I make sure that he can relax and be calm by the time mom comes home, so it’s not as chaotic here, I guess, for the best word.  

I hope everyone’s doing okay; I know life likes to throw things that everyone, so I hope that your day is lovely and something nice happens to you today or this week or a big event or something you’re worrying about doesn’t come true, and silver lining covers you all. With that being said,  I’m off; I need to do some things before heading to a work meeting, and I want to relax a little bit well, relatively calm in the house.  Have a lovely week!

Till Next Time,

Meg

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